The anxiety of grocery shopping

I have never been a fan of grocery shopping. In fact, I usually put it off until my family is asking me, did you happen to go to the store yet? When they are well aware that I haven’t.

Generally, I shop once a month for a big shopping trip, and every 10-12 days run out for fresh veggies, milk, eggs, and bread. That is the way I have been for years.

Four weeks ago, when quarantine practice started, I had just gone to the store. Today I had to go. I had been putting it off for a couple of days, but I knew that today was the day. Can I just tell you how anxious I was about going?

I am a bit higher risk because of an autoimmune disorder, and asthma. I also need to be careful because I go to my parents’ house every night to help get my father ready for bed as he’s on hospice and mom can’t do it alone anymore. Needless to say, I am very careful about exposure, and have remained home. Not that it’s hard for me to stay home, I have been working from home for the last 3 years.

So this morning, I was up early. I made sure to take my decongestant immediately when I got up. I have horrible allergies and spend a couple hours every morning coughing it away as my sinus settle. I didn’t want everyone to freak out if I coughed at the store. One cup of coffee, and I was out the door.

7:00 a.m. they let the general public in. I had on my mask, and I also wore gloves. They say that you don’t need to wear gloves, but I have a very severe allergy to Latex – so if someone who HAS been wearing latex gloves, touches something that I then touch – I can react to it – it’s a major pain in the (you know what!). Hence the reason I wore NITRILE gloves.

Another reason they tell people not to wear gloves is they don’t understand that if you touch something with your gloves on – they are instantly contaminated and give you a false sense of protection. My years as a cop doing evidence work and also being around blood and body fluids helped teach me the proper way to wear gloves.

When I arrived a nice young may wiped down my cart for me as I waited patiently and chatted with him from my safe distance of 6′, and then inside I went.

It’s a maze in there. I mean seriously, it was a maze, but they were nice enough to give you arrows so that you know the correct direction to follow. I found it rather humorous to see everyone staring at the floor as they went to make sure they were going in the right direction, and once, a man was going in the wrong direction and a woman growled at him. Not sure what she said, but he frowned, you could see the low eyebrows over the bandana covering his face and he quickly turned and went in the “correct” direction.

Shopping was rather easy, and I was lucky that just about everything I needed was available. Of course, the holier-than-thou toilet paper aisle was empty, and the cleaners section was pretty sparse. Pasta and rice were low, and clothing detergent was almost gone.

What I really want to know is how were people cleaning their back sides, and clothing before? I mean seriously!

I did do my own checkout and walked out of there with a cart full of groceries. Satisfied that I will be able to feed my family for another month.

Hand sanitizer up to my elbows before I get in my car, (which has been inside the pocket of my track pants), checked my phone because I had left it in the car. No reason to get it contaminated. I had only brought my credit card into the store to pay. That got wiped down with sanitizer too.

Back home, everything was brought in and either put in the fridge/freezer or stacked on a shelf to sit there for two days before it gets put away. I showered and then I sanitized the counters – the handles of cabinets, doors, gates and then the inside of my car.

Almost three hours later, I finally got to pour myself a second cup of coffee, and I could feel the anxiety draining from my shoulders. All in all, it wasn’t horrible, but I hate that this is our new “norm”, and it looks to stay that way for a while.

With that said, if you can stay home – stay home. Play games, watch every movie you ever dreamed of watching, read – listen to audio books and spend time with family!

I hope you all remain safe and healthy!

Avoid Fear; Be Valiant by @JoanReeves #mgtab

Photograph of Franklin D. Roosevelt

FDR, 1933, Photo from National Archives and Records Administration, Public domain

In 1933, during his first inaugural address, Franklin Delano Roosevelt said, “The only thing we have to fear is fear itself—nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror which paralyzes needed efforts to convert retreat into advance.”

FDR was talking about the fear that was pervasive in America at that time. The stock market crash of 1929 not only bankrupted 20,000 companies but also threw 15 million people into unemployment. More than 23,000 people committed suicide!

When FDR was inaugurated as President, the country was in crisis. Many people were literally starving to death. Back then the homeless were called hobos, and they road the rails and hitchhiked across the country—looking for jobs and food. My mother was a toddler in the 1930’s, but she remembered hearing men knocking on the back door of her home, begging for a piece of bread or any bit of food her mother could spare.

So FDR faced a dead economy, massive unemployment, and unsettling rumblings from Europe. People were desperately afraid of not having food to eat or a roof over their heads.

Fear Sculpture

Fear Sculpture by Adina Mayo

When Roosevelt uttered those words about fear, he was issuing a call to arms to the American people to believe that the crises they faced could be overcome—to be valiant and not succumb to an overall feeling of fear and panic.

We face pretty much the same situation today, but millions of people have never had to deal with a crisis like this. They don’t understand that perilous times call for all of us to dig deep for faith and optimism. Even the most frightened of us have the ability to “gut it out” and be valiant.

Valiant

The dictionary defines this adjective as the ability to be brave or determined. Yes, determined. We don’t have to throw ourselves on a grenade to save others or any of the acts of bravery committed by soldiers and first responders. We just have to be determined.

Sign saying VALIANT

Valiant = Determined

Determined to: believe we as a country (whatever your country may be), and as a people will endure.

Determined that we will not yield to nameless, unreasoning, unjustified terror but will be calm and think logically and follow sensible rules.

Determined to set a good example for our children so they will learn how to behave in crisis.

Determined that we will remain optimistic. Determined that we will help where and when we can.

Determined that we will not yield to panic and rush to testing stations when we have no Sign: Be a Warrior Not a Worrier.reason to think we have CoVid19, thereby conserving resources.

Determined to make the best of a bad situation. Determined that we will learn lessons from this awful experience.

Be safe. Be optimistic. BE VALIANT!