There is a major love/hate relationship that goes on with a book. I can’t speak for every author, but I do have a feeling many may relate to this.
I’m currently working on publishing book number 24. There is a vicious cycle that goes on through every book, some worse than others. It goes a little like this:
1. I’m sooooo excited to write this book! The characters and story line keep calling to me and I’ve been excited!
2. Hmm….I thought I knew how this would go, but now the words aren’t flowing.
3. Okay, I’m skipping this scene. Leaving a note to myself for round 2. Oh, here too. And here, and here and….wow, this is full of holes and notes to self…
4. OMG. WHY DID YOU DO THIS TO ME, PLOT? WHY DID YOU CHANGE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE DAMN BOOK???
5. Well, I should have seen this coming.
6. Head desk. Hair pull. Cry.
7. This book sucks. How am I going to fix it?
8. Huh…I like this. Not too bad after all.
9. More hair pulling. OMG, I am going to ruin this book, mess up this series.
10. Lots of second guessing. More revisions. More tweaks.
11. Does this plot point work? Is this too much? Is this too little?
12. Opens up adult beverage and partakes.
13. THIS will make the story better!!!!
14. On second thought….
So, I could go on, but I think you catch the drift.
With writing and publishing, for many, comes this agonizing pain of getting the story right, getting the characters the way we want them…and even then, I wonder: Will the readers love this? Is this character’s flaw too much? Too little? I know I’m not going to make everyone happy. It’s not going to happen, so I have to learn to write the story the way it calls to me.
For some reason, this this current book, I’m going through the “I-suck-itis” phase BAD. And because of that, I thought I’d write a little about it. I know that by the end, when it’s all said and done, the journey will have been worth it, but wow, during the time the feelings hit its peak, it’s quite brutal.
Until next time! Thanks for reading.
Nikki Lynn Barrett